When God is Not Enough
That bothers you doesn’t it.
It pained me to type it.
We want this. We want that.
We spend 80% of our day on social media, 60% watching tv.
We wake up and grab our phones. Check notifications, news, texts, etc.
We fill our silent moments with phone calls, talk radio, secular music.
Okay, maybe you’re a good Christian and listen to KLove.
Yet we allow the phrase “When God is Not Enough” to hurt us.
We’re offended that someone could say God is not enough.
When that is clearly how we live our lives.
I’ve been in this funk the last two days. Someone was mean to me and so then satan lied to me. I’ve done some stupid things in this funk of mine. I’ve apologized for not being what I needed to be, even though I’ve persevered through every rejection, every pain, every hurt in the situation because God has told me to. He has continued telling me not to give up. Yet in some ways, apologizing was me giving up. Because I was allowing satan to defeat me. To make me feel like I had something to apologize for. I allowed satan to say through me, “I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you, I won’t bother you anymore.” It’s the weirdest feeling to be rejected by someone who you were so sure God sent to you for an exact purpose. It doesn’t make sense. Like being somewhere you were for sure God called you and it not being anything like you thought. “Be faithful in the little things” Apologizing in this situation said God wasn’t enough. I needed words of affirmation, love back, quality time, acknowledgment, all the above and more when God only asks us to need Him. “Seek Ye First the Kingdom of the God”
Girls are mean. We all know that. Most of my “friends” are no longer my friends because they’ve either decided to make different choices than me, allowing themselves to make their own decision to walk away from our friendship or they see me as competition. I allowed this situation where someone saw me as competition this week and treated me as so to push me along in this funk. Because of that, satan was able to talk to me louder than usual. We allow satan in, that’s the only way he can get inside our minds. I have people with the sweetest hearts that make me feel as though I’m doing something wrong because I’m not in a sorority, hanging out with friends 24/7, with a boyfriend and nearing marriage. And oh boy does satan use those things. It’s crazy how one person’s actions can throw me into a “when God isn’t enough” mindset. I’m not saying sororities are bad or that hanging out with friends 24/7 with a boyfriend nearing marriage is bad either.. but when those things put us in a “when God isn’t enough” mindset that is when we need to reevaluate. God only asks us to need Him. Everything else in our lives should only be there to advance His Kingdom in our lives and through our lives.
I could go on and on about the things that put me in this funk but that’s not why I’m here. I’m here to tell you that I get in a funk when I live a “God is Not Enough” life. (This is extreme and does not apply to everyone,) but when I watch tv or movies, listen to secular music, binge Netflix, constantly check Instagram and Facebook, pin 2k pins a day, etc. I am not happy. I walk away depressed and wanting that life of friends 24/7 and a boyfriend to love me. I find myself running to Thought Catalog to try and find an article that relates to me or Buzzfeed to see if a quiz will tell me what’s up with me.
I get in a funk when God is not enough.
That’s why I chose to take my tv out of my room, deactivate netflix, delete pinterest, take social media off my phone and stop going to movies. (Again this is extreme, I’m not saying all of these things are bad. But moderation is key.) When God is not enough, I am unhappy. God SHOULD ALWAYS be enough. When you are walking with God, with Christ, with the Holy Spirit in you, you battle your flesh and your spirit overcomes. Your spirit of God is enough overcomes your flesh that God is not enough. But when we live a life of constant worldly influence, disregarding the Spirit and living according to the flesh, we live as though God is not enough.
Lord, help me to know you are enough. You are all I need. And everything else in my life should only be there to advance Your Kingdom in my life and through my life.
“But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh. For the flesh its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please.”